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{August 28, 2009}   I AM JUST SO BUSY YOU GUYS

I have not forgotten about this blog, promise. My computer is at the campus computet fixers, and I have no idea when it shall be returned to me. Hopefully soon, but yeah. I’m going down there tomorrow to find out what its status is.

I’ve started seriously working on a short play. I’m really not sure where it’s going, but the characters refuse to leave my head until I define who they are and why they matter. Writing things out is a little frustrating.

Still waiting on 5 of my 7 textbooks to be delivered. Arghhhhh. I hate the campus postal system.

Having so much freedom is amazing, though. I am digging it.



In 7 days, I will be in college.

In about a month, I’ll be 18.

I still don’t feel like a woman.

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I totally lied. I wrote a shitty poem instead.

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{August 6, 2009}   Vega is slummy

Sorry about the lack of update today. I realised today that I was several days behind in Self-Esteem Awareness Month, so tomorrow I’ll catch up on that. I might have a really cool post on Sunday, depending on how my plans work out. I got two words for you…

Farmers. Market.



Alright, before you read on, fair warning: this post is going to be Picspam City. (Camwhores live there.)

August 2nd – Grab a huge pile of pictures of yourself  (ones you love, ones you hate, and the ones in between), sit down, and spend however long you have to coming up with at least one positive thing about the way you look in each picture. Scrapbook them if you want to (it’s a nice thing to look back to), do it out loud with a friend, or just complete this exercise in your head – the point is to start focusing on the positive parts of the picture, and yourself, instead of the negative things!

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{August 4, 2009}   Womanism and having privilege

I was reading some blogs today wandering around the more liberal part of the blogosphere, and I happened across a blog called Womanist Musings. I had never heard of womanism before, and, being judgemental and silly, I assumed it must be yet another word that people call themselves like equalist or  humanist or other bullshit when they don’t want to be associated with feminism even when they share the same beliefs.

Well, there’s me being silly again. Turns out womanism broke off from feminism some time during the second wave after women of color got sick of the racism in the feminist movement after how much they had contributed to feminism. I’m assuming the term “womanism” comes from the term “woman of color”, but that’s just conjecture on my part. I haven’t nearly given Womanist Musings the reading it deserves yet, but it looks like it should be a thoroughly eye-opening read.

I have only recently come to terms with the idea that I have privilege. Specifically, white privilege and cis privilege. For a good primer on what it means to have privilege, check out this essay on white privilege and how it affects the daily lives of white people. Reading an essay on what womanism is and why white women can’t identify as womanists struck a chord with me. My kneejerk initial thought was, “She’s being racist! I can call myself anything I want to!” Then I remembered how utterly irritating I found it when I saw other people the same thing – the whole “people of color are racist because they want spaces and a culture of their own without being marginalized” thing. My own mother has made that same argument, most recently in reference to the BET Awards. She demanded that I tell her why there wasn’t a WET network. Because I guess having a privately funded TV network that caters to black audiences is a bad thing. And yet you don’t hear the same complaint about networks like Logo that cater to gay audiences or networks like Lifetime that cater to exceptionally stupid female audiences. And it’s not like Whitey is banned from watching or appearing on the network.

And then I read further, and it became quite obvious to me that that exact perception of people of color having their own unique spaces as being racist against white people is just another facet of white privilege. Even though people of color are marginalized in many public areas where discourse takes place (See: second and third wave mainstream feminism), when they try to create areas of their own, there is always going to be a large group of white people who try to appropriate their spaces.

White women identifying as womanist is just another aspect of that. (For similar reasons, I also disagree with men calling themselves feminists. )

I apologize if this is a little rambly and confusing. Part of the reason I started this blog was for me to have a chance to work out just what exactly it is that I think about, and I get frustrated real quick if I have to explain everything that I’m talking about. But I suggest you give those two things I linked up there a good read, cause they’re really worth it.



Recently, the fitness chain Gold’s Gym declared August to be Cankles Awareness Month. How utterly tacky. But today while I was browsing Feministing, I came across this link to a blog post declaring August to be Self-Esteem Awareness Month in response. Now that’s something I can get behind. She’s also posted a calendar of things to do during August to encourage positive self-esteem and inspire it in others, so I’ve decided to blog about my activities doing that for the rest of the month. That ought to keep me invested in this blog.

I have struggled with self-esteem issues since at least 5th grade when I started puberty. I have never been particularly skinny, and my mother had a habit of buying me very ugly, poorly-fitting clothes. A great deal of my low self-esteem is because of the whole mean-girls-in-middle-school-were-omg-so-meen-to-me, but just as much of it is just in my own head. It doesn’t matter what I wear, if I’m having a good hair day, or if someone tells me I’m beautiful. I just assume that I look like shit or that anyone who is nice to me is lying to me. Obviously that’s something I need to work on.

So, what’s Day 1 all about?

August 1st – Lets start this all of with a simple exercise that has been suggested on this blog before; write a list of at least five things about yourself that you love and tuck that list away somewhere for the next time you’re feeling down. I tend to make a new list/add to an old one every week or so – its a really quick & easy self-esteem boost.

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I was in the mood for baking, so I dug around my kitchen for things to make into cookies. I found some leftover white chocolate chips and some dried cranberries all the way in t he back of the fridge, so – shortbread time!

Shortbread is one of my favorite things to make. It just has such a pleasing, buttery texture – which makes sense since most of the time the dough is 70% – 80% butter. Plus, it’s fun to make! Most classic shortbread recipes come together so easily that you can just pop it all in a food processor and take out a giant ball of dough. Few things are as exciting to a baker. That’s what I do when I make apple tarts; just a simple shortbread crust that browns really nicely. Shortbread cookies on the other hand, almost never brown for me. They always come out really pale on top but perfectly browned on the bottom. They’re still delicious though, and if you happen to have cranberries and white chocolate then there’s no better way to use em up. Recipe is behind the cut.

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{August 3, 2009}   My blogroll!

Well, my blogging fever still hasn’t died down. I’m really getting into this. So I thought I’d show y’all around the place! Down there, underneath the sexy green girl that looks nothing like me, there’s a list of links to various websites that I think are awesome. The list is small right now, but that’s because I had to hold myself back from posting all of my bookmarks on it.  I thought I’d post a summary of what they all are so that you guys can check them out and love them like I do.

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So a friend of mine requested I blog about why I’m a feminist. Fair enough. I’ve been trying to organize my thoughts toward why I’m a feminist for a while now. I know I am, and I have no doubts about that, but I can never really explain accurately why I’m a feminist to people who say “I’m an equalist/humanist” or “We don’t need feminism anymore”.

Feminism is a dirty word now in public opinion. When someone says “feminist”, what do you think of? Hairy armpits, misandry, women ruling the world and keeping men underground for breeding purposes, things of that nature, probably. Certainly there are feminists who fit that belief system. But there are also Republicans who believe segregation and eugenics are awesome. Certainly not all Republicans are like that. Not even most of them.

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